I’m the kind of girl who often finds herself crying alone in a dark room, but I’ll send you a smiley face anyways to give the illusion that nothings wrong„„

You burned it„„„ wow.

Knowing you ruined someones birthday: awful.
Knowing you hurt someone you care about: god awful.
Knowing you can never do either of the above again: well, at least you’ll be happier

So I wake up this morning. And I realize. I can’t trust anyone anymore. Everyone I choose to spend my time with is either fake as all get out, or theyre trying to take advantage of me. The only ppl who aren’t are family, my best friend, and bf, who’s in Texas for the next 5 months. I can’t talk to family about anything because they judge. I can’t talk to best friend about anything cuz she’s too preoccupied with her bf, and I can only talk to mine once a week and in letters„, so I’m fucked.

See. Here is my problem. You run around all “I hate drama, I hate drama,” when in reality, the only reason you have so much is because you don’t know when to let go. You tried to start shit with me, and what happened?? I shut you down, and I walked away from the situation. That’s the mature thing to do. This is how adults act. Now, live your life and all. I don’t care if you want to start drama amongst yourselves. Here’s the thing. Please don’t talk about my friend the way you have been. I’ve heard both sides of the story and yours has too many holes and major inconsistencies for me to accept it as truth. I’ve seen you all gang up on her, make rude remarks, and then deny it when confronted and asked. Hell, I texted two of you and told you where I stand and you didn’t even have the courage or decency to reply. More than likely because you know I’m right. Now, Im not trying to insert myself into the situation, and I don’t want any drama with you guys. Just stop ostracizing her. Okay?? I don’t care if you like her or not. Be a decent human being. Not a bitch.

I don’t know what to do right now„, it’s all I’ve asked to get for my birthday„„ and now I don’t even know if I can go„, And what’s your reason?? The weather. The fucking weather. Fuck you bitch.

Here’s the thing. You’re fake. You backstabbed me on multiple occasions. You’re a senior for Gods sake. Stop acting like a freshman and stop being a drama queen. You don’t need to throw a bitch fit in the middle of class because you didn’t get your way. Boohoo, poor kitty. You need to stop being a whiney bitch, yeah?? Suck up whatever negativity you have and grow up hun.

I’m really beginning to hate how controlling and isolating you’re being with my best friend, bro. She wasn’t put on the globe to serve you. Get over yourself.

When I see my friends sad, I wanna cry :/

She cant see the landscape anymore. Its all painted in her grief. All of her history etched out at her feet. Now all of the landscape, its just an empty place. Acres of longing, mountains of tenderness. Because shes just like the weather; you cant hold her together. Born from dark water; the daughter of the rain and snow. Because its burning down the bloodline, its cutting down the family tree. Rolling in the landscape, darling, in between you and me.